What a week! Today, as I got a pedicure the plant explosion in Texas flashed on the large television screen on the wall. It hasn't even been a week since the Boston Marathon bombing and yesterday my husband told me a horrible story of a doctor who was on trial for performing late term abortions. As he told me about this doctor it was all I could do not cry. It is almost too much to bear! So much grief and tragedy in the world. It could leave one wondering where is God! Why does he allow such horrible things to happen? While I don't understand God completely. I do have a testimony in him and his son Jesus Christ. I know that Heavenly Father will not force us to believe in him and therefore we have free agency to do as we will. In Romans 8:24 "For we are saved by hope: but hope that is seen is not hope: for what a man seeth, why doth he yet hope for?" He could easily prevent all the bad things that happen in the world but then our free agency would be taken away from us. I walk by faith.
On Monday, I bought this sand and water table for Addy. It was a huge hit! She loves it! Her therapist suggested I buy it for her. She thought it might help Addy with some of her sensory issues. Addy seems to be getting better. She is eating more and she seems to be calmer at times. Yeah! One step forward.
Today, I had a root canal! All I can say it that I am so thankful that my husband as a good job that we could afford to get it done. They are not cheap! I don't know what I would do if we couldn't have afforded it because I felt like I had a brain tumor for weeks. Ouch!
Tomorrow, Roman has an appointment with the cardiologist. He sure could use everyone's prayers. While his previous visit have gone well the poor little boy has been so lethargic. He is tired all the time and at times just doesn't seem like a normal little 6 year old. Yesterday, he came home crying that his head hurt. That he is tired and all he wanted me to do was cuddle him. Over and over he said, "mommy, cuddle me."
Waiting! Waiting is what we are doing right now. While we received our LID which is an important part of the adoption process we are still waiting to be matched. Once we are matched then it is just a matter of months before we travel to China. The hardest part is that we found out it could take us 6 months before we get matched. I feel like I did in the last weeks of pregnancy when I had no idea when our baby would come. All I want is to see the face of our sweet child who sits in China waiting for a mommy and daddy. Currently, we are looking at a file of a little girl; however, I am waiting for the specialist to call me back in regards to her medical conditions. It is such a hard thing not to just be able to just say yes regardless of her medical challenges. I mean this little girl needs a home. She needs someone to love her and why not us. At the same time we might not be the best thing for her if her medical challenges are greater than we can take care of! This is where I have to trust again in Heavenly Father. I know without a shadow of doubt that he wanted us to adopt. I know he has the perfect little girl out there for our family, but at the same time it is hard to be patient.
So, this post turned out to be much longer than I had intended. We have a full schedule. Roman has his appointment and then Addy has her therapy appointment at three. It is also my mother's birthday. Happy Birthday Mom! On Sunday, we are attending the baptism of a friends son. I hope you have a fantastic weekend!