Editing

Lately, I have felt the need to Edit. I am not talking about the kind of edit you do with writing though that probably wouldn't hurt either because I have noticed many grammar and spelling errors in my blog post. That is what I get for writing past 10p most nights. Anyway, I am talking about the kind of editing one does with their life. So many good choices out there it is hard to choose; however, after flipping out on my children the other day I think I need to edit how I spend my time. I certainly would not win the Mother of the Year award for the way I acted the other day even though they kind of deserved it, and who can blame me given that I get only about 5 hours a sleep a day The problem is I am not very good at saying no or realizing I can't do it all. One would think by the age of 40 I would have it all figured out, but I guess not. I do realize that I am not alone in this problem so I will not beat myself up too much. The thing is that at the end of the day what kind of relationship am I going to have with my children if all I do is end up yelling at them all the time because I am stressed out. I think they would much rather go to fewer places or not do as many fun things if the things we do are happy. Do you ever find yourself in this situation? Do you wake up with a long list of things you feel you need to do with your children like read certain books, play certain games with them, crafts you have seen on blogs, places to go on bucket list, and that is all on top of the things you need to just to maintain your home. Speaking of maintaining a home, I am slowly learning it is OK not to have a house that looks like no one lives in it. This is a hard one for me because for years I have defined myself as having the cleanest house in the neighborhood. Also, not having a clean house has terrified me because it was just something that wasn't really a priority for my mother and it kind of embarrassed me. Writing this makes me feel like maybe I need to go to therapy. The thing is I am hoping by writing it that I will begin making the steps necessary to begin having a more balanced life. How do you find balance? How do you choose what activities make it into your day? Do you have any tips for me on how I can feel more balanced?
p.s. Roman learned how to write his name.  He is now beginning to recognize the letter of the alphabet and can almost say the alphabet without making too many mistakes.  I love how he writes the alphabet in the air with his finger.
p.s.s. he told me that witches creep him out after seeing a witch in a Halloween book
p.s.s.s. he told me I had great tricks when I made pizza dough last night from scratch.  Boy, do I love this kid.  He is way too sweet!